Dare

Dare to be different

Step out of your comfort zone

They say it’s where you find the true you

…

Dare

to

be

YOU

11/21/2016 9:04am

I left home at 5am,  never seeing him. Jogged 3 miles that morning at the office gym. He encouraged me that I’d reach my weekly goal. 

Sitting in the office just after lunch, I had a visitor. Odd, I thought, but oh well. 

Standing at the security desk was my son and a detective. We walked to a small office in the back. 

There’d beed an accident. A single vehicle. My husband didn’t survive. 

My world – turned upside down, backwards, inside out and just fucked.

I pulled my mattress off the bed. Dragged to the livingroom and slept there…for three days. 

Planning a funeral 3 days before Thanksgiving. Trying to find my thankful. 

My faith, son, inlaws. They are my thankful. Without them,  my tragedy would have overtaken me. Consumed my world.  

Faith

Family

Thankfulness

This Thanksgiving, find your thankful. 

08/23/2011

You folded your slacks

with a crease

Laid across the chair

No wrinkles in your clothes

Or 

plans

10/25/2017

337 days

Since I heard your voice

Your laugh

Seen you smile

10/21/2018

You kissed

me

That night I dreamt of 

you

I woke wanting

more —

Imprints

When the only thing to dry your tears is a tissue

 and leaves an imprint of your lashes … 

Like the imprint left on my heart. 

When you begin to lose your grip, remember what kept you holding on to begin with. 
Hope

Hope that one day your light will truly shine again.

Long time no write. 

Seems as though life grabbed me by the horns and put me through the wringer with both hands tied behind my back;

tested my faith, inner strength, patience and understanding of life – all in one day 11/21/2016

I hope daddy would approve. I’ve cried every night for almost two weeks remembering him. I never thought I’d miss anyone as much as I miss him.  

Last year, I only ran one 10k race. This year, three – on three consecutive weekends. I didn’t do well and don’t think I even did my best. But, I did it. I feel proud of myself for not throwing in the towel because I was tired or because it was early or because it was wet. I’m proud of myself to know that even without the training I did last year, I finished. Next year, I hope to have improved results!