Demolition

Tearing down walls, literally and figuratively this weekend. Finding more light, in the home and in my heart. I’m speaking of home renovation and relationship rebuilding. This was my weekend. After so many years of having walls between husband and wife, walls constructed by disease, PTSD, are starting to crumble – just like the drywall which hid the studs in the constructed wall. That wall torn down this weekend. Really. I torn down a wall in my home. I hope, I pray, that wall is demo’d forever. I learned to build my own walls as he had his..for years, more than a dozen. It isn’t a fun place to be. The place where you find comfort in speaking on an emotional level with another, only because the one with whom you should, just can’t. The emotional bonds are so much more powerful than any other. Oh, it’s difficult. Letting go and learning to lean on the correct one.  I’ve never been able to and I’m trying. Trying to build the wall between me and the past. Trying to let him close to me

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About k1nd3r5t3w

Born and raised in Maine. US Army Veteran, living in Kansas! Love road trips and my son. Go PATRIOTS. Amateur writer who just writes from the heart. Runner.
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